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I think I was really seeking for guidance but with this workplace friend who I've just started to respect but always had fun with. Yes, although the lighthouse was really close, but we had hard time reaching it and we had to. I climbed up and down the hill, saw a dog under some rocks and saw its puppy a few steps away. I was not afraid. Then I somehow reached it, alone but felt terrified when I thought I was alone on this desolate bulk of rocks. I experienced one of those relieving dream moments when I saw that those rocks were connected with the main land which is also an island all alone in the sea. So, I think I also have fears about the guidance I am willing to find. Maybe, it will make me lonely and leave me uncivilized, therefore unprotected.

Another remarkable moment was when we had to let ourselves down the hill, and I was afraid so he did it first and was OK. Although I was still scared, I led myself to a soft ascendance down the hill. So maybe I should ascend. Or I want him to do this first, or I assume he already did it, so me too, I already did it and found it less humiliating then I thought it would be.